Saturday, January 31, 2009

The sickness prevails...

So I'm back to being bed ridden again. This time it's something to do with my GI tract. 2 days ago I had was completely normal except for my residual pink eye issues, then I had an intense wave of nausea and sharp pain in my gut. I went to lie down and then the whole body aches started so I knew my fever was coming back. Well it pretty much slopped at 101.5 but was non-responsive to Ibuprofen. I tried to go to work the next morning but nearly passed out in a room with a client and had to run to the bathroom like every 5 minutes. I had one of technicians rush me to the nearest doctor's office. They are running 7 different tests on me b/c of my chronic high fever and high white blood cell count. The doctor said that if I had an appendix I'd be going to surgery but since I've already had mine removed that made him more worried b/c of what else the cause could be. So right now we're waiting for test results and I have to go back today for a recheck. He may admit me to the hospital for a CT scan. I'm just worried that I picked up something weird in Africa, since I haven't really been normal since the day we got home. My gut pain is lessened luckily and my fever broke last night. Michael woke me up b/c I had produced enough sweat to coat our entire bed. I looked like I had taken a shower in my P.J's. I just feel guilty b/c I have had like no time with Ezra lately b/c in case this is contageous I don't want to give it to him and I have no strength. I can't even pick him up. :( Not good for a new mommy. So just keep us in your prayers that this will get figured out soon.

Monday, January 26, 2009

New video montage

Here is a new video montage from our trip to New Orleans for my sister's wedding. Once we get some pics from the photographer I'll post those as well.

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My Montage 1/26/09

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Precious Moments....

So I still can't believe that Ezra is home. I just had the pleasure of rocking him back to sleep. He usually goes to sleep very easily with a bottle and he's out so it's not often that he needs Mom there to fall asleep. I was just holding him close, breathing him in... and I just couldn't stop thinking... he's REALLY here. He's been home almost exactly one month and it still seems like a dream to me. I don't know how I lived my whole life with out him in it. I just feel so blessed to have my son home and it just makes me soooooooooo sad for all the families that are still waiting for court, or travel, etc. I know the wait is worth it but while we were going through it it was pure hell. Now I can look at my son and see what all the internal struggle and termoil was for, there really is no way to describe it. No words could have prepared me for a night like tonight, when I just look at my baby and my heart fills my entire chest with such an intense love and gratitude. He really does make us fall in love with him all over again everyday. Like today at church when the music would start and every one was singing, he's start just blabbing away then when the music would stop he was usually a few notes beyond the silence so everyone of course was giggling and looking our way, then sure enough when the music started up he was singing again. Just moments like that just make us melt :) The bummer thing about this week is that I start back at work. It's only 3 days a week and 2 weekends a month BUT I've gotten so used to time at home with Michael and Ezra that it will be hard to be away from them for so long. I get so lonesome when it's only been a couple hours so a full day will be miserable. At the same time it will be nice to get to see some of my favorite clients and patients again and see my friends at work. I do miss the crew :) There are 2 families that are meeting their kids tomorrow in Ethiopia and I just am so jealous of them. I miss the kids so much and I miss ET even though we were sooooo sick the entire time. I really wish we could have stayed longer under different circumstances. I wish I had tons of money b/c I'd probably try to go with every travel group to see the kids and the families meeting each other for the first time. I'd be like an AWAA ambassador or something :) It would also be hard though to go and see all the children and not be able to take one back with me. Michael and I still aren't sure if we'll adopt again next or try for a biological child. It's just hard for me to bring a child into an overpopulated world knowing that we have such a heart for adoption and that's one less orphan who will have a home. On the other hand, what if we wait and then when I'm 40 I have an urge for a biological child... I just don't know. Lots of prayer. Enough rambling, I will be quiet now.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Root canals.... YUCK

Well good news from yesterday. Ezra had his "head doctor" appointment and he does NOT have to have a band made for his skull. The doctor said that though he does have some abnormalities he is still w/in the normal range!! YEA!!! We are so excited! So since I knew we wouldn't be spending the $2K on the head helmet thingy I decided to go to the dentist and see about my 7 year old cavity! Well of course I needed a root canal so I had that done this morning. At least the first part. I had been in severe pain with it since we left for Ethiopia. Now at least that's 2 more things checked off the list. So next week we go to the infectious diseases specialist. Just working our way down the list, seeing my savings account dwindle
:( BUT good news is that 2 AWAA families have passed court yesterday and today! Hurray! Though my good friends the Semlows and Kulps still have not passed. They now have to start their paperwork all over and try again in a month or so. My heart just breaks for these 2 families and I ask that you please keep them in your prayers.

Monday, January 19, 2009

We're back home - yea!!!

Okay so the idea to bring both dogs and our son to New Orleans was a mistake. I HATE leaving the dogs behind b/c something bad always happens. While we were in Ethiopia Clovis ate his Saint Francis medal that was hanging on his collar (which he also destroyed) and I had to do surgery to remove it. That's his SECOND stomach surgery. Herman on the other hand has such bad seperation anxiety that he will puke and poop pure blood. My car was packed to the brim. NEVER again. Herman had to sit on either mine or Michael's lap the entire time and Ezra would be good for about 3.5 hours at the most then he was bored and needed constant entertainment. Literally minutes after we got home Michael started looking for SUV's on Craig's List! I love my car and HATE to part with it (325i BMW 06' - I would recommend this car to everyone!!!!!) but there's just no way we can keep it now.
Ezra has his appointment with the "head doctor" tomorrow to see if he needs to get a little "helmet" type thing to try and round out his skull. It's a bit flat in the back from being left laying down in a crib all the time at the orphanage I'm assuming. So we'll see what they say. He would have to wear it 23 hours a day for 6-13 weeks!!! yikes! Then I am finally going to go to the dentist to see about this cavity that I've had for about 7-8 YEARS!!! It's becoming really really painful so I figure, okay.. you HAVE to get this seen about. I'm sooo bad about going to the doctor.
Sarah's wedding was beautiful and I LOVED being in New Orleans, it's just a magical place for me. The architecture is just "home" ya know. I was excited to take Ezra there and walk around with him but it was freezing cold so we couldn't stay out long b/c he'd get these LONG snot rockets hahahahahahahaha, and the dogs were trying to catch all the pigeons and getting tangled in each other and my legs. We'll go back when it's warmer w/o any furry friends. My dad finally got to meet Ezra and of course he was in love. On the way home he called and I told him that we were gonna have to get an SUV and he was like "now get whatever has side impact air bags and side impact roll bars b/c you have my grandson in there"... I'm like, okay dad, yes dad, whatever you say dad. Then we got to visit Michael's family in Shreveport and it seemed like almost everyone was there which was awesome! Ezra sort of freaked out at first but then the next day he was cool as a cucumber and loved all the attention! He pretty much kept his sleep schedule while we were there thank the Lord! He's such a great baby, we are just so lucky. Everyone says he should be a little baby model :) I have been thinking of his birth mother a lot lately. I don't even know if she's still alive or not and I just wish I could see her and hold her face in my hands and just thank her for the most amazing gift you could ever give another person.
On a sadder note my friends the Kulps and Semlows are in a real pickle with their court cases. The agency in Ethiopia that approves adoptions are NOW saying that they won't recognize the orphanage that their kids come from. This is their second attempt at court and it looks like it's not going to happen yet again! Guys I can not tell you how devastating this it. We've had our referrals since September and this means they may not have another chance at court until March!!! These kids NEED their families, so PLEASE pray hard for them. Also this is going to be the Joner family's second time at court as well and they are one of the families who's first baby they were referred died from pneumonia at the transition home. These families HAVE to pass!!! We need every prayer warrior we can get!!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Test results...

Well so far we've only done 2 tests for Ezra and the other 2 won't happen until Feb. 2nd when we see the infectious diseases specialist. He is POSITIVE for Giardia but was negative per his x-rays for Rickets/Scurvy. So I have to pick up his meds tomorrow morning before we leave for Sarah's wedding in Louisiana. I have to make this brief since Ezra is trying to help me type and keeps deleting things.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

New video montage

Blogger won't let me just post a picture so I have to post these little slide show videos. Just click on the picture below to see it. I hope you guys enjoy our boy as much as we do!!! We are all doing well and love our life with our son. I wish neither Michael nor myself had to go back to work so we could just "hang out" with Ezra all the time. It is nice to have a break though at times but I always get really lonesome w/in about an hour :)
AWAA has already had TEN referrals this month and we are praying for more. Also please pray for successful court dates for some of the families this week.

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A Day in the Life

Monday, January 5, 2009

Referral news...

Well thank heavens another family got a referral today! There's been a bit of a slow down with the referrals and I think everyone needed to hear some good news. Now I'm just praying that many more will start pouring in. After all, we plan to adopt again so what happens now will affect our future adoption(s). We do NOT want the Ethiopia program to become like China with a 3 year wait list. Ezra is doing just fine and we're just still in awe that he's actually with us. I'm listening to him "chirping and squealing" downstairs with his dad and it just makes my heart smile. He has his first doctor's appointment tomorrow - yikes! I think mommy may cry more then he does when they pull his blood.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

A quick look at our trip to Ethiopia

Check out the new video montage I created journaling our trip to Ethiopia to get Ezra. Just click on the picture below!

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Our trip to Ethiopia

Friday, January 2, 2009

Improving daily...

Just wanted to post to say that I am doing better every day. My voice is coming back well and I'm able to eat more and more. Ezra is doing LOTS of eating, it seems like he's actually eating round the clock. He's filling out so much already! I'm anxious to take him to my clinic today and put him on our baby scale to see how much he's gained since we left. We're trying to get him to eat the rice cereal but he's just not got the whole spoon thing figured out. I'm still not adjusted to Texas time and have been his enabler to keep waking up at 4am. I just try to stay up late but like last night I just couldn't so we all went to be at 6pm and woke up at 4am. We have GOT to get this boy on a better schedule. He is sleeping through the night though, only our night starts too early :)